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The Single Lady  Attention Everybody , Katy Here Cbox Cbox here. Links perfectoneword.
AUDREY...BRUNEI AUNTY |
my apology letter just for you.... - Saturday, July 25, 2009 5:54 AM DEAR MARTINA,I'M SORRY FOR CAUSING EVERYTHING TO COME BACK WHEN THINGS WERE ON THE VERGE OF BEING SOLVED.....I WAS SELFISH....I WAS THINKING ABOUT MYSELF AND ONLY CARED WHAT I WANTED.....THE REASON WHY I CAN THINK NOW IS CAUSE JUST NOW I TALKED TO SOMEONE MATURED AND SHE REALLY EXPLAINED AND TOLD ME THINGS AND EVERYTHING SHE SAID MADE SENSE AND WAS TRUE.....I WAS SELFISH....I ONLY CARED ABOUT WHAT I WANTED,ABOUT ME AND I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU CAUSE I COULDN'T CONTROL MY EMOTIONS...FAIR ENOUGH YOU ARE MOST PROB GOING TO AVOID AND IGNORE ME....BUT I ACCEPT THAT PUNNISHMENT CAUSE IT WAS MY FAULT....THROUGH THIS RELATIONSHIP,I ONLY GAVE YOU WHAT YOU WANTED BUT NOT WHAT YOU NEEDED....THAT IS 1 REASON WHY THIS IS GOING ON.....BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LET THINGS BE.... I ONLY WANT 2 THINGS FROM YOU NOW AND THAT IS TO GIVE ME TIME TO ACCEPT TO THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NOT WITH ME CAUSE WE'VE BROKEN UP FOR OUR REASONS....I REALLY NEED TIME TO ACCEPT THIS FACT...THATS THE REASON WHY I KEEP ON STRESSING YOU ITS CAUSE I STILL NEED TIME.... 2.TO REALLY TREAT ME AS YOUR FRIEND CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND I KNOW THAT I'LL WAIT FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT CAUSE NOW I AM CLEAR OF EVERYTHING....I HAVE BEEN SELFISH BEFORE BUT PLEASE DO GIVE ME TIME.....YOU KNOW ME THAT I AM A PERSON WHO CAN ONLY CHANGE AFTER AWHILE.....SO IF DURING THIS BREAK PERIOD,IF I HAPPEN TO STRESS YOU,PLEASE POINT IT OUT TO ME AND TELL ME AND REMIND ME AND GIVE ME TIME SO THAT THINGS BETWEEN US CAN GET BETTER BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT FROM THIS DAY, I WANT YOU TO BE WHO YOU WANNA BE....AND I WILL ACCEPT WHATEVER DECISIONS THATS COMES ALONG WITH THE FUTURE BUT I WOULD BE WAITING FOR YOU .... I PROMISE TO BE A FRIEND TO YOU AND ONLY A FRIEND TO YOU FOR NOW AND I PROMISE TO TALK TO YOU AS A FRIEND....IF I DON'T PLEASE REMIND ME..... AS A BF FOR THE LAST TIME, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. I'LL GIVE MY BEST TO CHANGE BUT YOU HAVE TO DO YOUR PART AND GIVE ME TIME AND UNDERSTAND.....SO YEAH SORRY...I KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO SAY WHAT'S THE USE OF SAYING SORRY ALL THE TIME WHEN IT HAPPENS AGAIN....BUT IT HAPPENS BECAUSE WE NEVER FACED THE PROBLEM AND THATS WHY IT ALWAYS CAME BACK....AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT NOW CAUSE LIKE YOU'RE NO LONGER MINE AND I ACCEPT THE FACT....BUT REMEMBER THAT I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT AND I'LL BE WAITING....TAKE YOUR TIME IN THIS BREAK....I PROMISE TO MESSAGE YOU AS A FRIEND SO THAT IT DOESN'T STRESS YOU WHILE WE'RE IN A BREAK...BUT I HOPE YOU WOULD NOT AVOID ME AND STILL TALK TO ME...... I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY. finally!!!! - Friday, July 24, 2009 7:56 AM THINGS ARE FINALLY BETTER AND SOLVED....EVERYTING IS CLEARED NOW AND I'LL WAIT FOR YOU TO COME BACK CAUSE NOW I KNOW THAT YOU WANT ME AND LOVE ME AND MISS ME ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU IN ME - 6:45 AM TODAY WAS ABOUT THE SAME AS YESTERDAY...THINGS ARE STILL BAD EXCEPT SHE IS SHOWING SIGNS OF WILLING TO COME BACK....UNTIL SHE SUSPECTED AND MISUNDERSTOOD ME.....I FORGAVE HER CAUSE I HAVE ALSO DONE IT MANY TIMES TO HER....WELL I GUESS EVERYTHING HAS BEEN MY FAULT.....JUST HOPE THAT THINGS CAN GET BETTER....CAUSE ITS ALL UP TO HER NOW....WHAT CAN I DO RATHER THAN JUST SHUT UP AND WAIT..... I'M JUST EMOTIONALLY TIRED THAT I'M SO CONFUSED AND LOST.... BROKEN AND SHATTERED - Thursday, July 23, 2009 4:15 AM HAVE BEEN HAVING BAD DAYS SINCE TUESDAY..... I REALLY MISS YOU I REALLY WANT YOU I REALLY LOVE YOU I REALLY LEARNT FROM MY MISTAKES I REALLY WANNA SOLVE THINGS AND EXPLAIN I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S WRONG CAUSE YOU NEVER TOLD ME I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY I'M LIKE THIS,STRESSING YOU I REALLY NEED YOU BY MY SIDE AS MY GIRLFRIEND,MAYBE THATS WHY IF YOU LOVED ME YOU WOULD COME BACK IF YOU MISS ME,YOU'LL COME BACK WILLINGLY IF YOU COME BACK I PROMISE TO NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKES IF YOU GIVE ME A LITTLE WHILE TO EXPLAIN MY SITUATION AND EXPLAIN , THINGS CAN BE SOLVED INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE THIS NOW I REGRET WHAT I DID AND ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE AND WAIT BUT IF YOU DON'T INTEND TO COME BACK,PLEASE TELL ME ASAP CAUSE THE ONLY REASON I AM WAITING IS CAUSE YOU TOLD ME YOU'LL BE BACK JUST THAT YOU NEED SPACE... PLEASE ALSO DECIDE SOON AS I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG CAN I ENDURE BEFORE I GET DEPRESSED...I ALREADY AM WEAK AS I TOLD YOU .... ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOVE YOU AND HOPE YOU WILL COME BACK I KNOW THINGS HAVE BEEN BAD AND SOUR FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS BUT I CAN'T HELP IT....I REALISED MY MISTAKES AND I CAN ONLY APOLOGISE FOR EVERYTHING I SAID OR DID .....ALTHOUGH WE HAVEN'T BROKEN UP, IT FEELS LIKE WE DID CAUSE I CAN FEEL IT...BUT YEAH....BUT I WIL ALWAYS BE HERE WAITING FOR YOU....IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO OR CHILL OUT,HOPE YOU WOULD CALL ME AND AT LEAST TREAT ME AS A FRIEND FOR NOW....I GUESS I WON'T CALL YOU OR MESSAGE YOU CAUSE ITS GOING TO STRESS YOU MORE IF I DO....BUT IT WOULD BE VERY HARD FOR ME TO STOP MESSAGING YOU BUT I CAN ONLY TRY MY BEST....HOPEFULLY YOU'LL BE ABLE TO DECIDE THINGS BETWEEN US.....CAUSE THEN ONLY THINGS WOULD BE CLEAR AND SOLVED...BUT UNTIL THEN I REALLY AM SORRY AND I WILL BE WAITING.....CAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU.....TILL THEN, YOURS FAITHFULLY,EMMANUEL.... ANOTHER BORING DAY.... - Tuesday, July 7, 2009 5:50 AM WOKE UP AT 6.34 AM TO MESSAGE MY BABY MARTINA... STOPPED MESSAGING AT 7.12 AM... THEN I SLEPT AS SHE WENT FOR SCHOOL I WOKE UP AT 8.30 AM JUST TO REALISE THAT MARTINA MESSAGED ME THEN I GOT SO SCARED THAT SHE WOULD BE ANGRY CAUSE I DIDN'T REPLY CAUSE I WAS SLEEPING LIKE A PIG.... THEN I GOT READY FOR SCHOOL AS IT STARTS AT 9.30 AM BUT I LEFT MY HOUSE AT 9 !!! WENT TO ECON TO GET A 500 ML COKE BOTTLE !!! IT WAS THE BOMB !!! IT COST ME $1.30 SIA !!!! THEN WALKED TO BUS STOP AND THEN THE 27 CAME STRAIGHT AWAY...SO I TOOK IT...GOT DOWN AT THE STOP AFTER COMPASS TO WAIT FOR 80...LUCKY ME,WHEN I GOT DOWN,THE 80 CAME :) SO I TOOK IT LA DUH !!! THEN I REACHED SCHOOL AT 9.57 AM AND I HAD TO TAKE TEMPERATURE THANKS TO THE STUPID H1N1 !!!!! TEMPERATURE WAS LIKE 35.9 ... WTF !!!!! THEN WENT TO CLASS.....STARTED TALKING AS USUAL CAUSE IT WS TIME TO GET READY FOR PE WHICH WAS AT 10.30 AM... WAS SO HAPPY THAT I COULD PLAY SOCCER JUST TO REALISE THAT UNTIL H1N1 GOES AWAY, NO PE !!!!!!!WTF AGAIN !!!!!! THEN I GOT MY NAPHA SHIRT CAUSE I GOT SILVER FOR NAPHE TEST :0 THE SHIRT'S QUITE COOL AND NICE..ITS WHITE...LOL THEN NO PE SO I GOT RELEASED EARLY AT 10.48AM THEN NEXT CLASS STARTED AT 1 PM!!! SO I WENT OUT WITH NARESH,MY DISTANT COUSIN WHO'S IN THE SAME COURSE AS ME !!!! CO-INCIDENCE MAN....LOL SO WE WENT BACK TO CLASS AT 1.23 PM TO GO DO PROJECT I AM GOING TO DO A MINI ELECTRIC CAR !!!!! DAMN DAMN COOL !!!!! PLANNED TO PERFECTION AND GOT TEACHER'S APPROVAL.... THEN CLASS ENDED AT 2 PLUS WHEN IT SUPPOSED TO END AT 5 !!!!! I WAS BORED AND MISSED MARTINA SO I DECIDED TO SUPRISE HER BY MEETING HER AS SHE WAS GOING HEEREN WITH APPLE,DEIRDRE AND AMERIE TO SEE AMERIE PEIRCE HER TONGUE...HAHA SO I MESSAGED DEIRDRE AND EVERYTHING WENT ACCORDING TO THE PLAN SUPRISED HER AT 5.10 PM..... DEIRDRE AND APPLE KNOW WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THIS.... THEN I MET DEIRDRE AGAIN AT 6 PLUS AT COMPASS TO GET MARTINA HER PRESENT AS HER BIRTHDAY IS COMING IN 2 DAYS TIME !!!!!!! GOT SOMETHING VERY CUTE :))) HOPE SHE LIKES IT....THEN WALKED TO PASAR MALAM TO BUT PEPSI....THEN WALKED HOME.... THEN I SAT DOWN AND WATCHED TV TILL MOMENTS AGO....I'M BLOGGING NOW WHILE PLAYING FACEBOOK....HEHE KEEP YOU UPDATED TMR ... HAHA !!!!!! TAKE CARE AND HAVE A GOOD NIGHT..... - Sunday, July 5, 2009 10:45 PM Hello....Its my first time here starting so guess it'll take time to know about things around....haha well its been a boring day....school was supposed to start today at 8 but i didn't go so i'm at home and decided to create a blog :) so i'm just watching tv and thinking of martina and the good times we had together:) I LOVE YOU BABY MARTINA :)HEHE |